Have you ever felt that things are not going the way you wanted it to be? Have you ever been lost in a road you thought was the right one?
As a young student, I was a consistent achiever. It seems like everything was happening at the right time, at the right place and at the right direction. But there came a point when I started to have uncertain decisions, everything started to seem like a failure, until I already see myself starting to be one. I failed in one of my major subjects during college, and I couldn’t pass my professional examinations yet.
I felt things weren’t happening according to what I have planned or how I wanted them to be. I got lost, feeling unsure of my plans, as well as God’s plans for me.
I started to have a blurry vision of how my future would look like. I started to doubt and fear my own capabilities. I started to question if this path that I am taking is the right one. I think I’m lost. I don’t know where to go. I don’t see anyone to ask for the right direction. I feel so alone. It seems like I am lost and heading through the wrong direction.
But as I go along this path I’ve chosen, I realized I’m not alone. I started to recognize that He was beside me all along this journey, but I have never seen Him. My heart was so blinded by my failures, that I was not able to see Him and His love that can correct all my mistakes. I was so lost, but He found me. He had been there with me all along even though I’ve decided to go the wrong way. He never left me.
Until now, I’m still walking through this path I have chosen. I’m still trying to find my way out of this road that I once thought was endless. Being lost had given me the opportunity to know Him better, and to trust His perfect plans for me. To wait and be happy, and to never get tired of walking with Him in this very long roller coaster journey. He is truly the way.
“Turn right or left, you will hear a voice behind you saying: ” This is the way; walk in it.” Isaiah 30:21
