Do you have those weeks, or even months, where it seems as if nothing can go right? Where everything seems to be going wrong? It happened to me. It has been one thing after another.
I love to plan and organized things. I have a planner that is full of every little thing I need to do from time-to-time. I like to know what’s going on and plan about it ahead of time. I enjoy being ahead of the everything. But this past few weeks, even I laid my plans perfectly – to where and when they exactly going to unfold –these perfect plans have become uncertain, leaving me in a place of confusion and in desperation for answers. I am in a situation that I cannot control. I can’t be ahead of the game. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know what my next few steps would be. I had a moment of panic. Then a moment of frustration. Which lead to a moment of confusion. Moments of uncertainties that led me to ask “why?”
“Why?” is a question that goes through my mind more often than I’d like to admit. In this case the question is, why has God brought me so close to something I’ve longed for and then taken it away? I felt like a child being tormented with a candy. The parent laid the candy in front of the child then when the child is ready to grab it… the parent pulls it away. In that moment that is how I felt. I felt as if God was dangling everything I ever wanted in front of my face and then He took it away right as I was ready to grab hold.
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Often we get stuck at the ‘why’ instead of using the question to provoke us to seek His answers, promises, and greater plan. As I seek the answers, the promises and the plans, I am reminded to remain confident in God’s plan for me and to truly open my ears and heart to hear from Him. It was a journey of learning how to be obedient, to be open and to seek Him in every plan that have been changed in my list and in my life.
I believe the Lord is trying to teach me how to be open and flexible in the uncertainties – that He will not give me answers in my every “why?” right away, that I’m not always going to know what plans are ahead of me. But, I am always going to have Him – Him with a much bigger and brighter plan for me than me that I have for myself.
That doesn’t mean that because it is God’s plan it is going to be easy. That doesn’t even mean that I will ever get an answer. That doesn’t mean that new opportunities will knock immediately. That doesn’t mean that I will not totally get confused when it happens. But, I have to trust that God has the best plan for me. He knows me, He knows my desires and He will give it to me in the right time.
Jeremiah 29:11 states, “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future you hope for.”
Let us offer to God the uncertainties that life has given us and ask Him to provide us with a satisfying and ongoing sense of purpose and peace.
God is preparing a beautiful story line for our lives. Just remain still and remember that He is in control.
