Looking back, I have always admired people who are happy about what they are doing and are doing the things that they really love and enjoy.
Before I left college, I already had my life planned. I thought I knew what I wanted, how to get there and remain productive in that part. Yet, once I started to step out of my comfort zone, everything came crashing down on me like an avalanche of anxiety, fear, doubt and second thoughts that kept me questioning: What on earth am I really here for?
The struggle is real. Every waking day of my life continues to be as meaningless as the last one that I’ve spent. I started to feel more tired and unsure of what I was really doing.
“For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord. Plans to prosper you, not to harm you. Plans that will give you a hope and a future.” – Jeremiah 29: 11
I came across this passage for countless times without realizing how God has been trying to really talk to me through all that I’ve drowned myself with. Not until I allowed every word of this verse sinks within me. There, I started to embrace the whole message that God was trying to tell me all along.
I have no right to be anxious. I have no time to doubt. I have no chance to be fearful because, from the very start, the Lord never left me. He was just there. I am sure of it. He just allowed me to take that rough road so I can fully embrace the smooth flow of His graces in my life right now.
I may not know yet where He wants to lead me, what He wants me to do for the rest of my life or how He wants me to handle everything that’s been going on but I am sure He just wants me to trust Him. He wants me to surrender everything that my heart holds so that I may completely live every moment of my life with Him.
I don’t really have to get it all figured out. I just have to take happy, faithful and love filled steps with His leading.
