Bitter? Mean? Rude? Name it all. I guess those are just a few among the many things that may happen to anyone when they get hurt.
Yes, I got hurt. I got hurt because I felt like I was wasted. I got hurt because someone hasn’t seen my worth as a precious lady. I got hurt because I was doing impure things. I got hurt because I know that I’ve sinned before the eyes of my family, friends and especially before God. I got hurt because I thought I loved the way I should.
Because I really felt that I was cheapen so much, that’s where all the bitterness, meanness and rudeness started.
During those times when I was having all these bad things inside me, I kept on praying to the Lord. I asked for forgiveness. I prayed for Him to heal me, to enlighten me and to be my strength because I know that I couldn’t handle all of those on my own.
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And indeed, the Lord helps and heals. He healed me through my friends who untiringly listened to my draining stories. They never ceased comforting me. He also healed me through my faith in Him. He consistently listened to my complaints. I kept on asking Him things like, “Lord, why am I experiencing these? Why am I crying over and over again? Can you just take away this pain in a flick of Your hand?”
Again, indeed the Lord comforts. I may have had a lot of complains to Him but He never turned His back away from me. He still chose to listen to me and let me feel His warm embrace.
As the lyrics of a song I know states, “You took my tears and made me smile. You lifted me up.” The Lord lifted me up again. He forgave me. Thus, I must also forgive myself and forgive that someone who has sinned against me.
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I must not be bitter, mean or rude. If I stayed that way, I will be hindering the love of the Lord to take part in my life. I must be happy and allow myself to be loved more by others. Because if I fail to love my own self, I will also fail to see how much love I deserve.
I must also be happy for that someone who made me feel this way, for what he has right now. I must forgive him and just allow God to take control of our lives.
Being happy, being more prayerful and being open to be basked in God’s grace are the ways that the Lord wants me to experience in order to let go, to not be bitter, mean or rude anymore. These are the ways that the Lord wants me to experience in order to embrace real love and have a healed heart.
