Have you ever felt lost trying to figure out your purpose and where you actually fit? Have you ever felt like your life is becoming a competition and you always have to win?
I have, and because of that, I consider my life enigmatic and complicated.
As I traversed beyond my box, I have seen fellows like me, how their dreams and their giftedness affect them in one way or another. Just like me, they also want to make a change in the world with what they have.
Unknowingly, I became a piece trying so hard to fit in a different dimension. I got stuck in a place I never desired to be.
I thrived to be top of the class, joined as many school activities as I can, and always wanted to lead. I got insecure, unconfident and competitive. I focused too much on how I can be better than the other. I struggled to keep a good image because I always wanted to be appreciated and be at the spotlight.
Until I was no longer fitting in any puzzle.
I got lost.
I lost my identity.
Out of exhaustion, I surrendered. I prayed and waited for the Great Mover. He picked me up and made me see my ultimate purpose.
God made me realize that I can also be a source of inspiration and happiness to others. That my insecurities can be opportunities to be better, and my unconfidence can teach me to be more dependent on God.
I realized that I should embrace God’s standards and not mine. To limit comparing myself to others yet not limit God to use me. In this way, I am embracing and loving the person God intended me to be.
I should not long for the things that I do not have but instead grow in my giftedness that will still allow me to dream big. I should love myself for who I am and for who I will become because of and for God.
It is only when I fully realized my purpose that I saw how I beautifully fit in the puzzle. It was only when I recognized my gift that I became whole.
